It’s been a year since neuropathy entered my life. This past year has been difficult. Living with pain 24/7 really changes you.
When I first found out what I had, I kept asking “Why me?” and “What did I ever do to deserve this??” I still have “why me” days but less often now; I try not to ask myself such questions as what purpose does doing so serve? There are no answers and focusing on things I have no control over only results in negative emotions. So I try to be as positive as I can.
Of course, I’ve had to make some changes to my life. I avoid spicy food (nerve goes crazy if I have just a taste), reduce my sugar intake (pain seems to go up after I have a sugar binge) and try to eat more fruits and vegetables (for general good health). Oh, and I avoid hard foods at all costs; I’m terrified of getting another cracked tooth. I also try to arrange activities in the morning when my pain is least, and keep afternoons and evenings as free as possible. Of course with a toddler in the house, I’m unable to be as free as I would like to be, but I try. I like to think that I’ve become less uptight about things as well. Stress ramps up pain for sure so I try to let small things go and relax as much as I can.
As horrible as neuropathy can be, I’m thankful for a few things. I feel lucky that I’m able to go through my days without relying on strong painkillers, some which I tried in the early days and made me unable to do absolutely anything. I’m also grateful that I have a husband who tries his best to understand my condition and who helps out whenever he can. And I’m also grateful for the help of my mother, who takes over babycare when I have bad days or need a break from things. Finally, I’m thankful that my husband and J are in good health. And to those who take the time to read my blog/leave comments/email, thank you so, so, so much. Your kind words and support have helped me more than I can say.
Thank you for sharing your journey of the past one year here. It really shows that one can overcome obstacles by persevering and having the courage to live through each day with a positive outlook on life. You are the perfect role model. Gambatte!
Thanks mun 🙂